Oh dear Oh dear Oh dear.

At the current time I am having trouble living in my head too much. My too-fertile imagination is hurting me. I take a random throwaway comment about myself and magnify it into a scientific law. I see a friend looking bored or overhear something and immediately go ' Oh no! I bore them! They don't want to see me!' I worry constantly about whether or not I am being interesting or helpful. Am I annoying people? Am I copying them? Do I care too much?

I want to say all this here, because I have a bad habit of withdrawing and standing back when I'm worried, and I don't want to do that any more! I want to be honest... I am struggling in an effort to hand this problem to God, who can sustain my need for companionship better than anyone else, but it is a struggle.

Just read this post from a facebook friend:

Whenever I feel lonely (which is pretty well all the time), I remember that the creator of all things is standing behind me, making me a hot chocolate, and that somewhere in the world right now is someone who is looking for me as much as I am looking for them.